I'm 40 years old and am married with a 3-year-old son. I grew up in rural Arizona, moved to the Boston area for college, lived in Brooklyn for 11 years, then moved back to the Boston area. I currently work as a software engineer, however I've previously worked as an editorial assistant, a functional analyst, and -- before total burnout at a soul-sucking digital/advertising agency -- a user experience design director. Now, working as a coder for a wonderful company with wonderful people is decidedly not soul-sucking. However, I've spent most of my life denying my creative abilities and avoiding exploring them. I'd like to finally shed the reasons I carry around with me for playing it safe (I should only have a technical job because I'm a woman who's good at math and science, I shouldn't try to write because it won't pay the bills, I'm not thin or beautiful enough to be a performer). Fuck that noise, right?
I'm finally honoring what truly fuels me and in the past year I've started taking music classes, made significant lifestyle changes, and started meditating. I've built a life full of family love, financial stability, good health, and physical safety; it looks very different from my youth. But the fears I internalized back then still stymie me. I'm want to evolve my life to one that feels more fluent, kinetic, cosmic, nourished and loving. I'm on the cusp of my next significant evolution.